Wednesday, May 21, 2014

The Call

I have been licensed now for over two months and have been waiting on my first call. Every time the phone rings and I don't recognize the number, my heart skips a beat thinking this is it....of course it hasn't been it any of those times. I have had this feeling for the last two days like there is a call coming and when my house phone just rang, my heart again skipped a beat. Then the caller id said it was my agency and I held my breath and had to calm myself down thinking....oh wow, this really is it!!!

I answered the phone all calm and collected and the lady on the other end was so pleasant and nice. Then she asked me if I was going to be attending the training next weekend? Ugh the disappointment that I just experienced. I know that my time will come when the time is right and I know that not getting a call is a good thing because it means that there are no babies needing to be taken from their parents. But I am really excited to get that first call and this was such a disappointment. Oh day that phone will ring and there will be a child needing to be placed and I will be able to say yes to the right one.


Edda Soffía said...

Ohhh... Þetta kemur einn daginn.
Love mamma

Handmade and off-centered said...

Oh what a massive emotional roller coaster you are riding. Big hugs to you.
Birgitta xx

Tammy said...

Wishing I'd seen your post on the diaper deal months ago. I would have stocked up too! Are you still waiting for a new arrival?