Well, the three year old that I mentioned in my last post didn't end up coming to my home and the same day I was told he was not coming, I was asked to take another respite. I told them I could take them but have family coming the same time the respite kids would be coming and my social worker told me it is okay to say no and to go enjoy my family instead.
Today I got a placement call and this time I said yes!
We now have a five year old little boy in our home. He could potentially go to a relative in two weeks but from what his worker said, she doesn't think that is going to happen. Either way, we are going to love him and enjoy our time with him and not make any plans past those two weeks until we know what is going on.
My youngest son is loving every moment of being a big brother and even let little man sleep in the room with him (we put a mattress on the floor and will eventually move little man to his own room when he is a little bit more comfortable in our home). This is exciting, exhausting, scary. and fun, all wrapped into one. After only having him for eight hours, I am so completely exhausted that I am laying in bed counting down the moments till I can close my eyes (waiting for my cousin to come home from a friends house before I go to sleep).
I'm looking forward to getting to know little man better and getting into a routine where he is comfortable and feels at home here. It was weird when I picked him up from social services, the first thing he said when he met me was, "are you my new foster mom?" It broke my heart to think that this little five year old boy is so grown up and understands so much more than his little mind should have to comprehend. We went to the store to get some clothing for him since he came with pajamas on and a little paper bag with some dirty clothes in it and he was more than happy to pick out some Batman clothes and Minecraft clothes. When we were driving home after picking up my son, little man asked if he could just call me mom because that would make it easier. I told him he could call me mom if that is what he wants to do or he can call me by my nickname or first name if he wants to do that. He said no thank you, I will just call you mom for now. So, mom it is.
This mom is going to sleep so I can be bright eyed and bushy tailed in the morning when the kids wake up.